I'm addicted to hentai and loli porn. It is really bothering me and I know I need to quit.

So basically a combination of being a total neckbeard in my past, and generally being addicted to porn for a period. It led me down a dark path in the past. For the most part my life is pretty good and things are going well however that dark period left some sort of scars on me that still are lingering to this day.I have this really bad addiction. I like hentai a lot but specifically loli stuff. Which is basically very young comic characters (under 14 typically). They are not real. I really hate myself for that and feel disgusted.I have no wish to harm anyone or anything. What really haunts me is that when I'm in public sometimes I see a kid. I don't want to do anything with them or even look at them in a passing glance but sometimes I see them and I remember the comics and shit. Like even small things like lets say the character was wearing like those weird cat ear things you see sometimes and then I see them wearing it in real life. Other times I see kids wearing proactive clothing and that really disgusts me too. I mean am I wrong for noticing it? I don't like go home and get off on it. However when did it become the norm to have a 10 year old wear skinny jeans and other hyper sexualized clothing. I'm not trying to deflect but I'm just saying.Now don't get me wrong, please. I have no desire to do or harm anyone or anything. It's just that when I even draw the slightest comparisons to the sick shit that I see in the comics, even though during those times I'm alone and know it doesn't harm anything (other than my sanity) it makes me fucking sick. Even noticing like what kids are wearing makes me feel gross even though sometimes you can't avoid a glance or whatever.I really have got to quit this shit. I don't think on the whole I'm a bad person but sometimes I wish I had never grown up on the generation that access to the internet at all. I feel like a lot of the sexual shit that I've developed was kind of bred by my access to the internet. I don't blame it for all of my problems... but whatever I think you get my point.[Advice]/[Support] please is needed. Also I know I need to see a therapist but even then I really am not comfortable talking to one about some of these things. via /r/confession https://ift.tt/2FR1vyO